Why?

I remember our end like it was yesterday...

Your words and actions, 
Left such an impression on my heart.

I try to erase the memories that haunt me,

But it's hard to shed the hurtful layers,

Of what you exposed me to.

I don't think I will ever understand,
Why you hurt me so bad.

I listen to music…

Certain songs that take me back…

I wonder if you know,

How powerful your toxic words affected me.

I still remember your tone,

The expression in your lying eyes,

And the astonishment I felt-

When you thought you had the right,
To speak so callously to me.

Why did you do that?

I would and could have never been that cruel to you.

It's not in my heart…my soul does not carry that gene-

To utterly disrespect the feelings of another human,

Especially, one I claimed to love.

Its been years since we were together…

The detox my mind and body have gone through,

Has been extensive to say the least.

I despise what you did to me...

The layer of mistrust you introduced me to,

And the broken heart you sculpted in me-

It wasn't right on so many levels.

I can't examine or begin to understand your complications,

I really don't care to know how you operate.

All I know, is you cracked me…

I think your goal was to break me,

But this, you did not accomplish.

There was something much stronger-

Then your desires that protected me.

This invisible shield knew my life was worth more,
Then what I lived with you.