A Moment of Truth

I had a moment of truth-

As I am faced with the realities,

From decisions I have made…both good and bad.

There is nothing I can do,

But deal with the unexpected dance,
Which has become my life.

It's hard to see the naked truth,

It exposes some incomplete decisions of the past.

The layer tied to lack of strength,

As I allowed certain elements in my life.

Tears rush to my eyes,

I genuinely am saddened about moments…

Saddened because I cannot change them.

They are my pillars in life,

Experiences I will always live with…

Lessons I learned through my journey.

There is that great saying,

"What ever doesn't kill you will only make you stronger"

But sadly,

I remember almost dying. 

This harsh reality is my daily reminder-

Of how lucky I am to be alive….

Now, I try not to get tied to complications,

I don't want to deal with situations that create chaos.

I stay away from people, environments that are unhealthy.

This is not an easy task,

Yet there is no other way for me to live.

I have to pick up all the pieces of the past…

Not to carry them in my future,

Rather to deal with them,

And place them where they belong.

They too have order in my life,

I now know, life's hardest lessons deserve my respect,

And this is where I am today.